A Random Google Search Helped Me Discover Who I Am

Or maybe I was simply suffering from a serious case of attention bias

Mynah Marie
5 min readAug 12, 2023
Photo by Alexander Grey on Unsplash

Have you ever been metaphorically hit in the face in a moment you least expect it? Sure you have. Who hasn’t right? Did it hurt or did it somehow drive you to some kind of a breakthrough moment?

One night a few years ago, I was doing some internet research about ethical non-monogamy and non-traditional relationships for a book project I was working on at the time.

So here I was, Googling away while chilling on my bed, pretty much as usual. To be honest, I don’t even remember exactly what is the exact article that brought me to discover my true nature, I just remember at some point reading the words “gender fluid”.

From there, my whole reality shifted 180 degrees.

I looked at my screen in bewilderment. These two words were calling me in a way that I had never experienced before. I diverted from the original purpose of my Googling and entered “gender fluid” in the search bar. I fell on an article on an LGBTQA+ website explaining common terminology. As soon as I read the definition they gave, I thought to myself “Oh my god, this is me! This is how I felt my entire life!



Mynah Marie

They/them. Gender fluid person of multiple identities. Always finding new passions. Writing, music, creative coding, digital art, spirituality, and witchcraft.