Almost Giving Up On My Creativity Saved Me

Becoming a writer, take 137.

Mynah Marie
7 min readAug 11


Photo by Mason Kimbarovsky on Unsplash

OK. Maybe it didn’t take me exactly 137 takes. Still, if you take a look at the current state of my Medium profile and browse through the titles of my stories, you’d probably think they were written by close to 137 different writers.

I don’t think I’m the only one. I think it’s probably a common theme amongst freelance writers to try out 1000 different niches before one finally sticks. In my case, I also had to try out and learn 1000 different skills because that’s just the way my brain works, it doesn’t sit still for even a second. It’s a miracle I’m able to have a meditation practice.

Truth is, for the longest time, I thought something was wrong with me. I read so many articles, watched so many inspirational YouTube videos, followed so many self-proclaimed creativity and success gurus on Instagram and TikTok… Yet, I seemed to be unable to put into practice all the advice they said was simple.

Choose a niche + find your voice + speak your truth + write every day = 6-figure income.

Was I really this screwed up? Was the whole world able to do this except me? What’s wrong with me?

Even the times I gave it my all and thought I was finally pulling it off, I’d soon find out that nope, this was just another detour — another curvy road my mind took me on in a desperate attempt to keep me away from this truth as long as possible.

By now you’re probably wondering “Wait, what truth?” Before you start expecting some incredible, groundbreaking and earth-shattering revelation, let me just tell you it’s something you probably heard about a gazillion times so… Prepare yourself for something quite anti-climactic.

My 137 takes to becoming a writer

Initially, what brought me to freelance writing about 5 years ago was the intention to create an online presence and build my own “artist brand”.

Soon after, I discovered Medium, and reading some beautiful stories by incredible writers here inspired me to get out of my comfort zone and start to write about more personal experiences.



Mynah Marie

They/them. Gender fluid person of multiple identities. Always finding new passions. Writing, music, creative coding, digital art, spirituality, and witchcraft.